Friday, January 30, 2015

Happy Birthday Little Man

Today is our grandson Logan's birthday. he is 8.
wow how time has flown.
and how 8 years can make a difference.
When little man was born 8 years ago today no one knew the outcome of the day.
Logan was ok, but his mom was not.
I was back a forth between nursery and recovery room and I knew something was wrong. She was bleeding too much. So I kept at the nurse. Soon they were giving her more drugs. And daughter was so out of it and she was crying so much. She kept asking me same questions over and over is the baby alright? am I gonna be alright? and I'd answer the same yes and yes. But then I'd look under the sheet and discover she was in another pool of blood so I'd run and find a nurse. They gave her transfusions. Then did a D & C. Then the Doctor called me at home (I had to go home make sure other 3 boys were ok) and he said if we don't do emergency surgery and remove her uterus NOW she could die. And I said what do you need from me? He said well your her emergency contact so you have to sign the papers to have the surgery done but we dont have time to sign papers I need you to give me verbal permission now before we loose her. I said do what ever it take save her life. and I will be right back there in about 15 mins. He said when you get back sign the papers. I said ok. I told the babysitter who happened to be my daughter's best friend what was going on and asked if she could stay with the other 3 boys. She said yes just go. So I ran out to my car broke all speed limits and got there just as they were taking her in. They told me to ask her if she understood what was going on because of all the drugs they had given her. She said yes but not why. I said I'll explain later just go get it done. She was so weak at that point so pale and so like she wasn't gonna make it. I went back into the nursery and held my grandson and sang him the grandma loves you song but changed it to mommy loves you. So that if for some reason my daughter didn't make it he would know his mom loved him.  After what seemed like forever the doctor came out and said she will be ok. She was groggy but alive. They did a complete Hysterectomy in order to get the bleeding to stop. I had saved her life but she wouldn't have any more children. She had 4 boys and I knew she wanted a girl, but now she was gonna have to be happy with her boys because the hardest choice I had to make I just made to save her life and I had. So Logan has his mom. She wasn't happy when she finally got it all put together 4 months later but then again after our screaming match I told her at least your the one here raising your 4 boys and not me raising them with out you. She agrees but there are days when it gets her down. I know that too But my choice was to save her life, so she could raise her boys and be there for them.

Thursday, January 29, 2015

It's been such a hard time

Hubby and I have been under so much stress here lately. All these doctors and hospital bills that aren't covered by insurance. All the calls that we couldn't answer. And on top of it all our daughter and her boys are living here too. She is trying to help us as we are trying to help her. Yet as we seem to sink so does she.
When hubby was in having the hip surgery. I was walking to McDonald's that is there in the hospital and I started to pass by the financial adviser when I decided to check to see if she was busy. She was not. So I ask her for help. I told her about all the surgeries about not having insurance for one of them for there being so many and was there any help for us?  So she got out the paper work and we started to fill it all out together. Then I went and got my lunch at McDonald's and went back to hubby's room. I told him what I had done and he said oh good.
Well time passed and we heard nothing. and next thing you know we are getting bills from the hospital and all the rest and they all want their money.
So I looked for the number but couldn't find it, but did find another number and gave them a call and asked if they knew what was going on. Well she said we were missing some paper work and until they had that they couldn't give us an answer. and that they had sent us a letter in the mail. Well we did not get anything in the mail. So we asked what they needed got a fax number and said ok we will get that to you yet today. and then we did just that. She said give it two weeks and call and see where its at.
Well yesterday hubby said I should call and see what was going on. For some reason I didn't get to it.  Today he went to the mail, and found a letter saying they accepted us and paid all of our hospital bills. I sat and cried. Just totally cried. Just earlier today I changed my photo on face book. it says:
FAITH IN GOD CHANGES EVERYTHING.

Ok so now it's like I put that up there on my face book page and we get accepted and our bills are paid!
I know I've asked God for help before. and I know it seems like he's not listening, so its been hard for me to believe that there is a God. But why did I put that on my Face Book page today? and when we so needed it now? Because Faith in God Changes Everything!
Yes yes it does. Thank you God. Thank you for sending us help we needed.
Now we still have some bills yet to pay that are in collections but hey they are like a Hugh dragon breathing fire at us any more. Now its just a little lion roaring at us. And I think we can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Another good thing. I am fixed up. I got a good report today from the doctor about my knee. I don't need to see him again unless I do something stupid. Now we just have to finish fixing hubby he does still need the other hip replaced. Now it doesn't seem like the world is closing in on us.

Thursday, January 22, 2015

He didn't realize what he was doing when he did what he did.

The young man was a very heavy drinker. He drank more than any young person should. Then he went and got help.
But when he came out he went right back to drinking.
His girlfriend and another friend gave him an ultimatum. STOP DRINKING OR ELSE!
Little did they all know it was too late.
He arrived at the hospital to get help only to learn his kidneys and liver where already shutting down. Then everything else went to hell from there. They tried dialysis but it was too late for that. Tonight they are making the hardest decision ever. To pull the plug. He never came back long enough to know what turn of events came his way. He never knew what he was doing to those who cared so very much for him. And tomorrow his life will be over.. Way to young. all because he wanted to keep drinking. He chose to drink. So in a way he chose to kill himself. He knew what could happen. And now its way way to late for him. and all his family and friends are hurting so badly. and they are crying. What a terrible waste.

Monday, January 19, 2015

our safety

Way back when a little know company had started, when you first signed up they asked you not to use your real name, They said make up a name. Now that little know company has gone nation wide and is known all over the world and they are saying you must have your real name or you are banned! Does this make sense? HELL NO. But alas we all live in a world that never make sense. I've lost a few friends this way because they used a made up name hell I used a made up one once a upon a time. But when I wanted my family and friends to "find" me I used not only my real name but pictures of myself so they could find me. Not everyone knew me by my a.k.a. name. But then I had some friends who only knew me by my a.k.a name and when I used my real name I had to let them all know hey this is me. Police will tell you be careful of information you share online for there are people who will steal that information. So my question to this well known company why do you ban those who use a a.k.a name on your site? they are trying to keep from sharing to much information like the police tell us not to? I feel your not try to keep us as safe as we should be.

Saturday, January 17, 2015

Surgery

So on Tuesday morning I have to be at the hospital at 8 am. Surgery is at 10 am. I'm hoping it turns out to be the simple surgery the doctor said it would be, 3 holes fix it done and heal! Not the oh -oh it's worst than I thought and your gonna need a knee replacement.
Once I am healed hubby is going in to see about getting his right hip replaced, if he can last that long. He is already having problems walking and standing. In fact he has told me his hip has given out on him a few times and he has almost fallen. He has caught him self so far every time!! So yeah hopefully once I'm done and hubby gets done we will finally be on our way to our new life! I'm hoping Florida. We shall see. But first let us get through these surgeries. Me first.

Friday, January 16, 2015

Stereo type

I'm changing up my post a little.
I have watch my granddaughter struggle with peer pressure and thought this would be a good place to put out some views of my own.
So in a way this is dedicated to my grand daughters.

Now just because I am old and from another generation does not mean this can not apply to you.
Things don't change all that much.


When I was a young girl I hate skirts and dresses. I wanted pants and jeans.
I also liked playing in the dirt, playing baseball and basketball.
Most people called me a tom boy.
But to me I just wanted to be me to do what felt right to me and comfortable. It did not mean I was a boy boy or a girl struggling to be a boy. it meant I like jeans and dirt.
I had dreams of getting married and having children some day. But as a young girl I wanted to dress the way that made me feel good. Not all gussied up fancy like every one thought a little girl should be. and heaven for bid should I get dirty! Dirty was my middle name. I loved playing with road graters and dump trucks and mud. I did not like trying to wear high heels shoes that hurt my feet and twisted my ankles. So leave me alone to be me.
They didn't want to take me to church because I didn't want to wear a dress. I didn't want to wear make up or get my hair done up. What was wrong with you they would ask? Are you trying to be a boy? NO but I want to be me and those things are not me.
Sure as I got older I did wear a dress once in awhile and I did have my hair done once in awhile but I didn't ever wear make up because to me that was hiding the real me. I didn't like the way it felt on my face so I didn't wear it EVER!
And for heels? NOPE give me flat shoes or tennis shoes and I'm happy. I just don't feel I need to add height to me. I am me I am 5 feet 4 inches tall period!
I hear now all these  girls I went to school with who all wore heels who now have so much trouble with their feet. Me? My feet are good! well except the arthritis.
Yes I was over weight and yes I worried about it. But you know what? I dressed to make me look good with the extra weight and I am still me. I don't listen to others telling me oh you should do this honey it would make you look so much better.
But here is the thing that went around my head the most.
Because I wanted to be me, because I wanted to play in dirt and play baseball and basketball and wear jeans and flat shoes do you know what hurt the worst? They said I was gay!
Now I do not have a thing against those who are gay. nope not at all some of my best friends are gay. BUT just because I wanted to be different and wanted to be me I was labeled! and labeled gay! And that hurt. They whispered behind my back and they weren't true friends, they wanted to know what a gay person was like. and even if they found out I wasn't gay they refused to change their minds about me.
So girls, here is what I want to tell you. BE YOU. DON'T LISTEN TO OTHERS MAKE YOUR SELF HAPPY.  and remember you might start a new trend by being you,

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Cant think of a title.

What goes up must come down.....

That is from a song.
But today it pertains to friendship
Mine went down the way of bye bye see ya.
This person whom I thought was a friend (even though I never met her) posted something that upset me deeply.
It was how to make a machine gun, with a pop bottle and some other things you can buy at a hardware store.
That wasn't the part that bothered me although it bothered me that she posted this online where millions of children as well as sicko adults could see it.
Nope what bothered me most is she called it a TOY! Yes a toy. Now if you had seen this video you would know there is no possible way it is just a toy.
Now the other thing that bothers me about this person and this post is that she post things about "God" all the time. how her life is given over to God and how we all should trust in God and on and on and on and then she post this.
Yes I believe she has the right to post what ever she wants on her face book page. BUT when your preaching about rights and wrongs and are pushing God at people and then you post the video you posted and call it a toy when it's clearly a machine gun. Nope I'm sorry we are no longer friends.
Mainly she knew that I have some grand sons that are troubled and this is clearly instructions to make something that would get them killed over.
Maybe I'm wrong but I do not think so. I wish I had the video for you to see but see I deleted it as well as her as soon as I could so it would not fall into the wrong hands!

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

1-800-I-don't-care

I am so damn tired of all these damn 1-800 callers. They want to sell me this or that. Or the ones who call to collect money we owe. Yes we already know we owe you money you don't need to call us to tell us nor to ask us when can we pay. If we could pay you we would have by now.
The one I really love is "you have won an all expense paid trip to Hawaii"
Then they ask you if you have a credit card and when you say no they 1) hang up on you. 2) they ask you to get one and call them back or my favorite 3) they tell you how you can go with them by using their money then owe them by going to a little presentation of condos. Yep its my favorite one.
The last 2 or 3 times they have called here I laugh when they tell me I won. I then jump in and say no thanks. I am not interested in any ways they want to send me cause I DON"T WANT TO GO. Yeah they don't like that! I think I will change my number to 1-800-go to hell!

I so love my hubby

I love my hubby. I mean I really really love my hubby.
See this really nice Dodge Durango?
My hubby traded off his F 350 pick-up for this beautiful 2004 Dodge Durango! For me. Well yeah for him too.
We had trouble getting in and out of the F 350 and it was getting expensive to drive as it was Diesel.
Gas prices went down but Diesel did not.
So we started looking for something cheaper to drive, and get in and out of.
I wanted a Dodge Journey but wow are they outta our price range right now. So hubby seen a Jeep and had me look at it on line. See he went to the dealership and I stayed home because of my knee.
So I went on line seen the Jeep and told him the price and he was like "what? that's not what they are quoting me" So then I see this Durango and its in our price range and I say check it out. Well he did then he also brought it home so I could see it. The sales guy told me he sees hubby a lot at hubby's job that's how they met. I said ok nice car you make up your mind. and he did and we now own it! I really really love it and cant wait to drive it. In about 2 weeks. or maybe a little more! Depending on how long it takes to recover from knee surgery. 

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Cats

I've probably told you before that I've owned cats since I was 2. or they have owned me. Lucky my  cat now has the personality of all the cats I've own before him all wrapped up into him! I see each and every trait or movement or whatever one other cat had in him. Then of course he has his own.
He plays ball. Now I don't mean just catch the ball I mean he will send the ball back to you. He will either hit it back with his paws or he will push it back at you. I keep trying to get a video of it and I just can't get it. mainly cause my cell phone battery is either dead when I want to catch him playing or when I get ready to tape it he stops playing!
 He also begs for treats. That I do have a video of


Now in this video is my daughter and Lucky trying his damnest to get her to give him some treats. Of course she is putting it off as long as she can so I can tape it. 

and he does this often. as soon as anyone gets ready to go out side he will jump up on the tv stand and go by the closet door and wait for someone to give him treats. (in video she is by front door now that winter is here he wont sit by front door to often its too cold for him)
And he will give you so much love and he will reach out grab at you with his paw trying to get you to get those treats (yes they are in the closet by the front door....why I don't know someone put them there once and that's now where we put them when we buy new ones). And Lucky knows where his treats are in fact he will look in the closet judging to see if he can jump up on the shelf or not to get them himself. so far he hasn't tried to.
He has brought me so much joy. And he is one spoiled kitty. Funny thing. He is the first ever cat we paid money for. and he is the first ever cat I DID NOT PICK. 
But oh he is a mommy's cat and oh he is a jealous kitty too.

Let me tell you a story of one night:

One night hubby and I were laying in bed. We were next to each other cuddling. hubby had his arm around me. Pretty soon thump thump and there was Lucky on top of me. He sat there on my chest meowing at my hubby. my hubby said what Lucky. he knew what Lucky wanted. Lucky wanted hubby to move his arm. Lucky keep meowing but hubby ignored him. So Lucky backed up and laid down on my stomach. He would meow every now and again at his total displeasure of being on my stomach. Finally hubby moved his arm and Lucky put his head on my shoulder and stretched out completely down my right side. Now he was happy! SPOILED! yeah he is he really is!
But you know what? I love it! and every night when it's bed time and he comes over and waits for me to pick him up and carry him to bed, even though I tell him he has 4 paws and should be carrying me I will carry him every single time. and in the morning when he puts a paw in my face to wake me up yeah I don't mind. Sure it might be earlier than I wanna get up but he's hungry so I gotta fed my baby, I talk to him just like one of my kids and I know he understands me.  So even though I didn't pick this one out hubby did a great job. only problem was hubby thought he was gonna be his cat! 

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Brrr

Wow we went from some really nice weather for a Minnesota winter to Brrr now your where your suppose to be for a Minnesota winter but did you have to?
I used to love winter, Snowmobiling. Making snow forts with the kids, Ice fishing. Yes I was out there in the cold and didn't seem to notice it was even cold.

Then I got older....got arthritis, got Raynauds. What is Raynauds? well this can explain it better than me.

A feeling of cold in the hands and/or feet -- or sensitivity to the cold -- is a common complaint in people with hypothyroidism. Typically, if you're a thyroid patient experiencing these symptoms, the cold sensitivity and cold extremities will decrease usually significantly after you've received appropriate treatment for your underactive thyroid.
But in some thyroid patients, symptoms continue. When cold hands and/or feet persist, you should be evaluated for Raynaud's syndrome. Raynaud's (sometimes also spelled Reynaud's) is also known as Raynaud's phenomenom. It's a disease that involves an interruption in the blood flow to fingers and toes (and sometimes nose and ears), due to spasms in the blood vessels.

Now thing is I don't have a problem with my thyroid. Ive been tested many many times. But its always come back good nothing wrong. 
But another doctor (I've seen 4 about this) told me it is hereditary. So if my parents or any of their siblings had it so will I. My sister has it, in fact she was the one that noticed it on me and told me to go check it out. I have what they call a very mild case it hurts but its not bothersome.  my sister on the other hand has a serve case. 
Another thing is now I've got a bad back and weak spin. so a fall could be trouble for me.
So I don't go out much in the winter. I stay warm indoors.

Monday, January 5, 2015

It's been more than a month....

Did you know it's been more than a month since I drove a car? NO? you didn't know that?
Well I haven't and why not? well I have a torn something or other in my knee along with something or other floating around in there causing all kinds of swelling and pain. DID I SAY PAIN? OMG THE PAIN.
I finally got them to give me a pain pill for the pain.......yeah but guess what? I started to itch and I don't mean a little itch I mean an all out war on itching. It was so bad that one night I sat up in bed was itching like crazy my hubby was talking to me I did not answer him, but instead laid back down in bed and went back to sleep . next day though we seen where I had an itching frenzy  on my leg  and scratched it so bad I left marks and sores every where on my leg. So I only take that pain pill when I really really have to.

Come Monday the 12th of Jan I have my pre-op exam and then surgery is scheduled for the 20th of Jan. Now hubby thinks that the doctor will get in there and say its worse than he originally thought and replace my knee. After reading the doctors report I agree. So I'm expecting the worst.
And so is hubby. He is already starting work late. As he goes and picks up both boys from school first before he heads off to work. Little man is out last at 3:20 so Hubby doesnt get into work till almost 4. And he will do this till I am back to driving again. And of course that depends on what they end up doing to me. weather I just have 3 holes drilled and they fix it or if they replace my knee. We will find out Jan 20th.

Saturday, January 3, 2015

Oldest grandson

So our oldest grandson who is 19 text me the other day asking me about potato salad. And I answered him. Well I'm not 100% sure it was the answer he wanted LOL but after about another 20 text or so he called me with:
"grandma it's bland, what do I do?"

" well just squirt a little mustard in at a time and mix it and taste it but remember do one squirt mix and taste and make them small squirts because you can add but you can't subtract"


"ok thanks"


One text later: it is a surprise what one squirt of mustard can do for taste.
I text back yup sure is.


Now mine you I know his squirts.....usually bigger than mine. But if it worked hey who am I to complain?

Now here's where he had his problems,  he is cooking potatoes and eggs ok? then he is getting stuff ready for mixing mixture to add in right? and he text me and says how much do I use of Miracle Whip? Well honey that's a good question because you see grandma doesn't measure. She sight and taste it. OMG WHAT?
LOL so I explained what sight and taste meant. Oh Ok. he says I get it.

Later I tell him I will have to teach you to make a turkey next...that is all sight too.
Of course it is he tells me!
LAUGHING MY ASS OFF!
ok I did copy off some of my good recipes and give to him ones that I pretty much know by heart and don't really look at, sure I take out the recipe and set it on the counter and maybe glance at it once in awhile to make sure I AM ON TRACK! But as far as what every thing is called for in some recipes it's all in the head! I told my grandson "well I now know who to leave all my cookbooks to!"
I have cook books from all the way back to when I was in 7th grade. and I've been picking up cook books ever since. I couldn't even begin to tell you how many I have. You would think I would be a master chef by now, But no just a barely get by cook. Yup that's me the dreamer one day I'm gonna get those cookbooks out and really learn to cook!
Actually I think each cookbook has 1 or 2 recipes in there that are my favorite ones to use and so that's all I use that one for. Either way if grandson likes to cook and wants the books he may have them. (all my favorites are marked)

Thursday, January 1, 2015

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Happy New Year!

I hope your year is everything you hope it to be.

I am praying for hubby and I get through our surgeries with no problems. I have my next one Jan 20th. knee surgery for a tear in my knee. Then hubby will need his right hip done. Hopefully once that is done we can move on to our next chapter in our lives.
And that we are not even sure what we are doing, we bounce back and forth between living here in MN to be near grandchildren because we think the littlest one needs us. Well so does the second youngest thanks to me.
Yeah I have a temper and I started something with his other grandma. But I was in the right, she didn't include him when she included all "her other grandchildren" when I asked her why she didn't include him as well she went off on me. I said really all I wanted to know was why you didnt include him? She did this 160 and told my daughter that she never wanted to see him again. WHAT? are you kidding me? I ask a simple question you blow up go off on me yell and scream at me then tell my daughter you never want to see your grandson again let his other grandma take care of him! really? So because of this I have have him all holiday vacations from school and all weekends because his other grandmother and his dad refuse to see him. all because I asked a simple question of why wasnt he included as one of her grandchildren? So of course I blew up and I called her all kinds of names and her son as well and well rest is history they don't see him any more ever. When I asked him about it he said its ok grandma I never had fun at her house all she did was yell at us all the time we couldnt do any thing but sit around and it was boring. I asked but what about your dad arent you gonna miss him? and he said I really dont know my dad hes not there half the time (he's usually in Jail) SO I guess its all for the better but it does make me fell kinda guilty that he doesnt see his other grandma or his dad (even if it was once a year.)
I am also that crazy aunt. And I super hope that my nephews and niece can say oh yeah remember the time she and then tell a story and laugh like crazy. and be happy about it. yeah Im that crazy aunt.  Ok one story.just one story.
My sister and her boys were out visiting me in South Dakota. We had been in Huron I was driving this really old pick-up. and the boys were in the back seat, the windows were open we were talking laughing and all of a sudden we were passing some cows in a field and I went moooo out the window. Then one of my nephews said hey cow do you know what your gonna be tonight? HAMBURGER! and we laughed and laughed like crazy. I don't remember where her or my hubby was nor her daughter but it was just the 4 of us if I remember right and boy we had a blast! Thats one of those things I hope some day one of them tell their kids Oh I remember my crazy aunt and all of us went and then tell the story. I hope I made some kind of mark on my children nephews niece and grandchilden and they can all smile and say yeah I remember when she............