I think Ive gone crazy

 I had a strange dream last night where I went to visit a girlfriend from high school and see her new baby. Well first off she has no means of getting a baby (in other words never had sex) so I don't know how she would have a baby. Then her mom was there in the dream and her mom passed a while ago. Then as I am looking at her new baby she brings out another baby who is suppose to be 9 months older than the one I was holding. OK strange but I've heard of people getting pregnant right away again. Well then my mother in law came in and I said Hi mom and she didn't answer and I was like MOM but then I'm like wait she has passed as well. As I'm holding 2 little babies one 9 months old and one about a week old I'm seeing they kinda look purplish blue (ya know like dead) and I'm thinking ok so so far the only one's who are really alive in this dream are my girlfriend from school and me. and every one else has passed on. I changed both babies and noticed that neither one has any indications of whether or not they were boy or girl. It was then I realized these babies were the babies I lost. I don't know if they were letting me know they were ok or what considering I hadn't thought about them in years. her mom has passed my mother in law had passed and both were in the dream in some way or another. My mom is also gone as is my dad but they have been visiting me other nights. why these choose to visit me last night I do not know. But I know they were happy babies in the dream so I guess that means they are happy in the after life.  Which I had never before really believed in but guess now I kinda do. So to my 2 children that I lost and never got a chance to meet, I do love you and wish that we had gotten to be together. You have 2 brothers and a sister. and your father is an amazing man. We have been together now 47 years and are still crazy in love. and sure I do hope one day we will be together and I will finally know what sex you each were. but until then I love you and will see you in a few years down the road. (at least I hope I still have a few more years here on earth).

All this damn stuff

 I'm getting sick of all the stuff we have. And yes I know its my fault all my collections. But hubby has his too. But he's not as attached to  his collections as I am to mine so when he says sell it he isn't sitting there crying over it. He will take out 20 boxes I will go through them and by the time I'm done I don't want to see another box but here he comes with another 20 boxes. It's gotta be done he says yeah I know that but shit give me a break once in awhile. Every day now I have a headache and every day now my back hurts. As much as I love S.D. I can't wait for this to be done and go home to Fl. 

Happy Birthday to me

 Yesterday was my birthday and I'm now 67 years old. Yup that's right 67! I don't lie about my age I see no reason to. The thing is so many people will say to me NO WAY are you 67. well yes I am. I have grandchildren who keep me young. In fact our daughter brought out her youngest son to stay with us the rest of the summer here in South Dakota.

Speaking of South Dakota....This is our last summer here too. We have sold the land and  are in the process of selling all items we have collected over the years.  

The bad part of this is not seeing the grandkids as often. They can come to Florida to see us (if they or their parents can afford to buy the airplane ticket.)We live close enough to the Gulf of Mexico that they could go to the beach every day if they wanted to. Our kids are invited as well, but everyone has to remember we live in a 2 bedroom 2 bath house and there isn't much room to put a bunch of people unless they wanna sleep on the floor.

I would really wish our oldest granddaughter Kelley would come see us or at least get in touch with us and let us know she is ok. We miss her and Love her very much. We know her dad is a screw up and that hurts us as much as it hurts her. we are very disappointed in him as I'm sure she is. He is a very smart guy who got into drugs and well then everything went to hell. I know he blames me. And I know I probably am partly to blame. But his dad and I did our best to make sure he had a roof over his head, clothes on his back and food in his stomach. I can't help what happened to him in school cause I couldn't be right there with him to protect him. But as soon as I found out I fought for him. and as for his brother being born on his birthday I can't plan that either it just happened. We thought he would be proud of that, instead he was jealous. Don't know why we made sure they both got the same amount of attention on their birthday.  Kelley or Kay Jay Dee which ever name you go by if you see this please call gma & gpa. We love you kell-bell.