It's a sad time here in the Gab household

 It's been hard for me to write this and so it's been awhile since Lucky has actually passed away. Yes our Lucky of 15 years has passed. He was in my lap one morning I was petting him, when he jumped down into his box and died. I can't tell you how hard I cried. Worse part is hubby cried too. it hit him that hard. Our traveling baby is gone. Traveled from Minnesota to South Dakota to Florida to South Dakota again. With all the states in between Stayed in Hotels/Motels and had all the girls in many Mcd's going is that a cat? really? Awwww! Does he really travel with you? I would says yes and under my breath saying Duh we are in a car.

Bandit on the other hand can not find him and keeps running around trying to find him. OH DO YOU NOT KNOW WHO BANDIT IS? 

Bandit is our puppy He is Part Shitz-Tzu and Toy Poodle making him a Shih-Poo. we got him at 8 weeks old and he is now 9 months old.  AND SPOILED and NO NOT ME THIS TIME.......DADDY. 

Hubby didn't want a dog he was happy with just Lucky and saying when Lucky is gone that is it NO MORE! Except it didnt work that way. One day he tells me I can start looking. Well I started looking and by the next day I had found Mason. I showed hubby and he goes ok. SO we went and got him and first thing daddy did was change his name to Bandit.  Well it wasn't long before Bandit was getting in daddy's lap and not mine. and no matter how many times daddy said go see mommy your her dog but Bandit would stay put in daddy's lap.  Yes Lucky and Bandit got along it took Lucky about a month to accept him but he did. The only time he growled and hissed at him was when he tried to eat his food! 

this picture is of Lucky and Bandit on me. together. as you can see. 

The last picture I ever took of Lucky. 

Bandit on daddy's lap sleeping. 

I really hate sleeping in hotels with Lucky.

 It's bad enough these hotels charge an arm and leg for you to spend 1 night but then they charge you more because you have a pet. And many times they will put you in a room where another pet has left their mark and the smell is awful. And ever since this covid situation many places DON'T clean as well as they should. So I keep praying that we get extra money some how to buy another camper and that way we sleep in our "own" bed and if you haven't been here since our $40,000 mistake well let me tell you we are now super leary about even getting another camper. When your spending that much money on a camper you expect it to be 100% working order especially when you buy it brand new! I will be so glad when this is done and we are back home in Florida

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Our last Good Byes

 This may be one of my longer posts. We sold the land in South Dakota, last summer with the agreement that we would get everything out of the garage in 1 year. we got a load out last year but it wasn't all we wanted. But now going through what I thought I wanted to keep I'm getting rid of. This will be the hardest good bye to a house I've ever did. Did I ever tell you the story of this house? Well let me tell you now. First when we were going around town looking at homes for sale we had passed this house (not for sale at the time) and I said I wish that one is for sale That's the one I want. It was a smallish house on a double corner lot (like our house in Bloomington was till we added on) and had a big garage. Well we didn't find a house that time around and went back to MN. a few weeks later we came back a couple days earlier than planed and stopped in to see our realtor. He said a house just came on the market that morning and he didnt even have it listed yet and he said would you like to go see it? I said sure. So we followed him.....to the house I wanted to be for sale. I walked in that house and said we want it. SO we bought the house. We moved stuff over and then Dad had a class reunion coming up so I said come on over you can stay at our house. Well dad gets there and he's like I know this house. I said you cant dad we just bought it. He goes I know I know this house. We went to bed that night and the next morning as we were eating breakfast dad said THIS HOUSE IS MY OLD GIRLFRIENDS HOUSE. Then came the stories of what him and his old girlfriend used to do in that house. UGH!!! Then that night I met said girlfriend and she asked where I lived and when I told her the address she goes oh my old house do you know your dad and I? I go oh yes dad told me all about it and then she told me all about it as well. So here we are in a new house not even a week into it and we learn my dad's old girlfriend used to live there. So the house meant a lot to me so when we had to tear it down it hurt. and now saying good bye to the whole land and garage is just killing me. 

Then our son, oh damn him he's been in jail so much lately and I feel so how its my fault. He was such a smart kid. Now our daughter seen him and said he looks like he will die any minute. and our second oldest grandson the one who shares our anniversary with his birthday well he is following in his uncles foot steps and he doesn't look much better. DAMN THOSE FUC**** DRUGS. 

I have cried more tears that I care too

 I haven't heard from our oldest son in awhile. Last I knew he was back in jail again. Pisses me off so much that he chooses that life over the better life he could have had if he had just finished school. Then we have our second oldest grandson who is following in his uncle's footsteps. he quit school. He is drinking and using drugs and stealing, and he is in total denial. Right now he is in the hospital in the Phsyicaratic ward and we really hope they can keep him the whole 6 months he's suppose to be there. In fact he probably needs to be there much much longer. They used the fact he has an infection in his leg and his leg is swollen way beyond normal to get him in the hospital to begin with now just to keep him there. There is a court order for him to stay but he will wiggle out of it if he can. WORST part is he wants to come here to Florida and I can't have that knowing he steals. I don't need my neighbors to know this of my grandson and then find out he stole from them. I already have enough stress in my life I DONT NEED HIM TO MAKE IT WORSE. IF THERE IS A GOD I HOPE HE HEARS THIS ONE PRAYER KEEP HIM IN MN KEEP HIM IN THE PHSYIC WARD PLEASE DEAR GOD PLEASE

Loving living in Florida

 We are almost ready to be here 100% full time. We have one more summer to get to the things we really want to keep and sell the rest and then we are done. We have already sold the property in South Dakota. And we sold the house in Minnesota 3 years ago. Sometimes I miss being up north but it's mainly because our kids and grandkids are up there. I have had the dream again about the babies and I am pretty sure they are the ones I lost. I'm sure they are telling me mom we are ok. I cried this time in my sleep and woke up crying. I just miss not knowing these little ones. Today 10/16 is our boys birthday. Our oldest son Jack is now 47 and his brother Timothy is 43. Yeah both boys same day 4 years apart. Baby 1 that I lost was right after our oldest son he was about 1 1/2 yrs old. then I had our daughter and our youngest son and he was barely 6 months old when we lost baby 2. yeah we would have had little ones close together but we would have managed. But then again maybe God knew better. Either way I miss not know them. I hope they know that they would have been loved very much and they are actually loved very much now. Miss you children, boy or girl which ever you may have been. 

I think Ive gone crazy

 I had a strange dream last night where I went to visit a girlfriend from high school and see her new baby. Well first off she has no means of getting a baby (in other words never had sex) so I don't know how she would have a baby. Then her mom was there in the dream and her mom passed a while ago. Then as I am looking at her new baby she brings out another baby who is suppose to be 9 months older than the one I was holding. OK strange but I've heard of people getting pregnant right away again. Well then my mother in law came in and I said Hi mom and she didn't answer and I was like MOM but then I'm like wait she has passed as well. As I'm holding 2 little babies one 9 months old and one about a week old I'm seeing they kinda look purplish blue (ya know like dead) and I'm thinking ok so so far the only one's who are really alive in this dream are my girlfriend from school and me. and every one else has passed on. I changed both babies and noticed that neither one has any indications of whether or not they were boy or girl. It was then I realized these babies were the babies I lost. I don't know if they were letting me know they were ok or what considering I hadn't thought about them in years. her mom has passed my mother in law had passed and both were in the dream in some way or another. My mom is also gone as is my dad but they have been visiting me other nights. why these choose to visit me last night I do not know. But I know they were happy babies in the dream so I guess that means they are happy in the after life.  Which I had never before really believed in but guess now I kinda do. So to my 2 children that I lost and never got a chance to meet, I do love you and wish that we had gotten to be together. You have 2 brothers and a sister. and your father is an amazing man. We have been together now 47 years and are still crazy in love. and sure I do hope one day we will be together and I will finally know what sex you each were. but until then I love you and will see you in a few years down the road. (at least I hope I still have a few more years here on earth).

All this damn stuff

 I'm getting sick of all the stuff we have. And yes I know its my fault all my collections. But hubby has his too. But he's not as attached to  his collections as I am to mine so when he says sell it he isn't sitting there crying over it. He will take out 20 boxes I will go through them and by the time I'm done I don't want to see another box but here he comes with another 20 boxes. It's gotta be done he says yeah I know that but shit give me a break once in awhile. Every day now I have a headache and every day now my back hurts. As much as I love S.D. I can't wait for this to be done and go home to Fl.