I give up

Today I gave up:

I am in my 60's.
So some of my dream's are gone over kaput.
Like the dream house I I always wanted to have. When I was younger and first married and we were looking for our first home I knew what I wanted. But hubby wanted the house we got because he had dreams as well. Dreams that were killed by the city of Bloomington. Every single time he took them an idea of what he wanted to do for our house they shot it down. WHY? Well because we live on a corner double lot. They came to us wanting us to sell them the corner half of the lot so they could build a house on it which would have been so damn close to us and we said NO. We bought this double corner lot because our neighbor that was next to us was also on a double lot so they were a distance away from us not like the houses right across the street where you could reach out your bedroom window and touch your neighbors house. And this house being on the corner wasn't close to the house on the other side either because there was a street in between. So when we turned the city down they became pissy and started to be on our backs every time we turned around. We didn't mow our lawn right. Our dog was barking to much. We left a bike out front. and on and on and on. SO when we wanted to add on they said no,no,no,no. When we finally did get them to agree on what we wanted it basically just doubled in size. but wasnt they way we really wanted. One thing that we did do that they hated was we put the basement steps in middle of house and they didnt want them there. But it was to late to change so they stayed.
So my house wasn't the way I nor my husband wanted it. And now it's way to late. I was looking on line at homes in Florida to possibly move to and the ones that even have part of what Ive always wanted in my dream home is so expensive that no way am I gonna get it in our retirement home. I have seen some condo's that have what I want but hubby's no very heped up on Condo's. They are to much like apartments. and neither of us want to go back there again if we can help it. 50 plus places might be the answer but I'm thinking we might need assisted living. I'm worried. Hubby is showing some signs of..... Well I just don't wanna say because I'm not sure but he seems to twitch a lot. and he is making lots of noise when he is sleeping. and his eye twitchs, and he says he will be holding something and all of a sudden drop it with no warning. SO yeah I need to get him in to a doctor to talk about whats going on. We may need to get a different kind of place to live and I don't know if it will have anything that I want. My dreams are over. I give up.

Happy New Year-2016

Well here we are 4 days into the new year and we have already been to a funeral of hubby's sister. We got a chance to see some family we hadn't seen in quit awhile. So even thou it was a sad time it was also good. The boys are back in school. I need to call the doctor now to see about surgery on my shoulders because the pain is to bad. I'm looking forwards to Friday. We get to go see Williams and Ree again. I love them. I think I have been going to their shows since I was about 13. First show I went to was with my dad and Uncle Harold. I didn't understand most of the jokes but if they laughed so did I. Only thing I know I remember for sure is Running Bear the song they sing. Yup I don't care how many times I hear that song I love it and will never tire of it. I am praying 2016 will be much better.