So I don't know how true it is..................
But I got a call from my oldest son's girlfriend and she said my son is in jail.
He beat her and tried to run over her son all while being drunk. If this is true he will be there awhile.
I would have thought at almost 41 he would have learned by now.
Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Sunday, March 29, 2015
Dear Momma
Dear Momma:
Why didn't you tell me some of the families history before you died?
Like who if anyone had arthritis....I'm thinking daddy did even though he never complained, and only reason why I think so is when he died they straightened his fingers out and when I seen him in the casket I knew something was wrong with him, he just didn't look right. As I stood over him I realized his fingers were straighten out instead of all bent and crooked. That was my first clue he must have had arthritis.
And how about problems going to the bathroom? Now I know you had some problems but you never said what or how you had to fix them (if you ever did) and the only thing I know is that you ended up with rectal cancer from having those problems.
And allergies; Does anyone in our family have allergies? I can't remember any one coughing a lot but I remember you always having a runny nose and daddy always hacking up a lung. Were those allergies?
I know a lot of the important things, like who had breast cancer, and other woman part cancer. And I know about Diane's hole in her heart. (can't remember what they call it but I remember when I tell doctors hole in heart and they say.... Rheumatic fever and I say yes that's it).
But mom you didn't talk to us about your cancer. Oh sure I knew about the rectal cancer, and they said you had a spot on the lungs but it never grew larger. but there was cancer other places in nodes or something you didn't tell us about. Nor did you tell us what the doctor said about how long he thought you had.
Actually mommy you really didn't tell us much of anything. One day you were there my mom and the next you were in bed and I was taking care of you knowing it was the last time I would be with you.
There are so many times I wish I could call you. You knew about your first great grand son. But you never learned when we finally got our granddaughter your great granddaughter. We had Tj and Aaron when Kelley came along. Then Jeremy and Timothy Mark Jr., James and Logan before we got Kaitelynn! 8 momma I have 8 grandchildren. and Jack and I raised Tj. Tonya was at no point to take care of him after her husband ran off. And when she was Tj didn't wanna go home to her. SO we had him all the time. He is 19 now momma and as big as Jack! and do you remember when I was dating Jack and daddy said to me you sure you wanna marry him because he ate so much? Well so does Tj. LOL and momma so does Little man Logan, I hope your watching over them from heaven momma cause thats about the only thing that keeps me going daily. Cause there are days when I am so ready to just fall apart. Remember when you told me "just wait till you have kids of your own?" Yeah I told that to my daughter too. and she is like mom take off the curse! Oh yeah Momma Tonya did not have any girls she had 4 boys. I was right she got dad's moms curse of no girls. There is another thing I wish you and daddy told my kids about. Cause they look at me like I'm crazy when I tell them about it. They think it like an old wifes tale. But ya know I kept telling her every time she got pregnant that she wasnt gonna have a girl and I was right. I knew I don't know how I knew but I just knew she wouldn't. I keep thinking of what you and dad had said about grandma and her not being able to have girls and that is would be something passed down and I just knew Tonya would be the one to not have girls. Jack Jr had Kelley and Tim had Kaitelynn. SO both boys had one daughter. and momma Im afraid that neither of them will have girls when they get older. I really hope I'm wrong. The mothers these boys picked aren't ones you would have approved hell I dont really appove but its too late now and all I can do is Love my grandchildren, and put up with their mom's. and No the boys didn't marry these women, And Tonya OMG mom Tonya has 4 boys with 4 different guys and not one of them is worth shit! The one we loved like a son and we happily accepted him into our home and family only to learn he was a jerk and treated her badly after Logan was born. And the tears she has cried. She really picked some bad guys momma. Hey Momma guess what? I did help name her boys though, well not Tj as his daddy named him. But I named Aaron, Jeremy and Logan. and then when Tim and his girlfriend had Kaitelynn I was there at the hospital and I said let me please name her Ive named 3 boys and this is the only girl Im ever gonna get a chance to name please can I name her? They said what do you want to name her? I said Kaitlyn. But Shawn said do you care how its spelled? I said no as long as it was Kaitlyn. So they spelled it Kaitelynn. So I got to name my granddaughter too. Kaitelynn Ann! She has my middle name as well! Sigh can life be any better? Yes if you were here to share this all with me. There have been days momma when I really wish you had still been here to play with these grandkids. But I have muddled through and I'm still learning so much.. Main thing I learn every day is how much Love I have for them all.
Why didn't you tell me some of the families history before you died?
Like who if anyone had arthritis....I'm thinking daddy did even though he never complained, and only reason why I think so is when he died they straightened his fingers out and when I seen him in the casket I knew something was wrong with him, he just didn't look right. As I stood over him I realized his fingers were straighten out instead of all bent and crooked. That was my first clue he must have had arthritis.
And how about problems going to the bathroom? Now I know you had some problems but you never said what or how you had to fix them (if you ever did) and the only thing I know is that you ended up with rectal cancer from having those problems.
And allergies; Does anyone in our family have allergies? I can't remember any one coughing a lot but I remember you always having a runny nose and daddy always hacking up a lung. Were those allergies?
I know a lot of the important things, like who had breast cancer, and other woman part cancer. And I know about Diane's hole in her heart. (can't remember what they call it but I remember when I tell doctors hole in heart and they say.... Rheumatic fever and I say yes that's it).
But mom you didn't talk to us about your cancer. Oh sure I knew about the rectal cancer, and they said you had a spot on the lungs but it never grew larger. but there was cancer other places in nodes or something you didn't tell us about. Nor did you tell us what the doctor said about how long he thought you had.
Actually mommy you really didn't tell us much of anything. One day you were there my mom and the next you were in bed and I was taking care of you knowing it was the last time I would be with you.
There are so many times I wish I could call you. You knew about your first great grand son. But you never learned when we finally got our granddaughter your great granddaughter. We had Tj and Aaron when Kelley came along. Then Jeremy and Timothy Mark Jr., James and Logan before we got Kaitelynn! 8 momma I have 8 grandchildren. and Jack and I raised Tj. Tonya was at no point to take care of him after her husband ran off. And when she was Tj didn't wanna go home to her. SO we had him all the time. He is 19 now momma and as big as Jack! and do you remember when I was dating Jack and daddy said to me you sure you wanna marry him because he ate so much? Well so does Tj. LOL and momma so does Little man Logan, I hope your watching over them from heaven momma cause thats about the only thing that keeps me going daily. Cause there are days when I am so ready to just fall apart. Remember when you told me "just wait till you have kids of your own?" Yeah I told that to my daughter too. and she is like mom take off the curse! Oh yeah Momma Tonya did not have any girls she had 4 boys. I was right she got dad's moms curse of no girls. There is another thing I wish you and daddy told my kids about. Cause they look at me like I'm crazy when I tell them about it. They think it like an old wifes tale. But ya know I kept telling her every time she got pregnant that she wasnt gonna have a girl and I was right. I knew I don't know how I knew but I just knew she wouldn't. I keep thinking of what you and dad had said about grandma and her not being able to have girls and that is would be something passed down and I just knew Tonya would be the one to not have girls. Jack Jr had Kelley and Tim had Kaitelynn. SO both boys had one daughter. and momma Im afraid that neither of them will have girls when they get older. I really hope I'm wrong. The mothers these boys picked aren't ones you would have approved hell I dont really appove but its too late now and all I can do is Love my grandchildren, and put up with their mom's. and No the boys didn't marry these women, And Tonya OMG mom Tonya has 4 boys with 4 different guys and not one of them is worth shit! The one we loved like a son and we happily accepted him into our home and family only to learn he was a jerk and treated her badly after Logan was born. And the tears she has cried. She really picked some bad guys momma. Hey Momma guess what? I did help name her boys though, well not Tj as his daddy named him. But I named Aaron, Jeremy and Logan. and then when Tim and his girlfriend had Kaitelynn I was there at the hospital and I said let me please name her Ive named 3 boys and this is the only girl Im ever gonna get a chance to name please can I name her? They said what do you want to name her? I said Kaitlyn. But Shawn said do you care how its spelled? I said no as long as it was Kaitlyn. So they spelled it Kaitelynn. So I got to name my granddaughter too. Kaitelynn Ann! She has my middle name as well! Sigh can life be any better? Yes if you were here to share this all with me. There have been days momma when I really wish you had still been here to play with these grandkids. But I have muddled through and I'm still learning so much.. Main thing I learn every day is how much Love I have for them all.
Saturday, March 28, 2015
HOW CAN WE STOP THE MADNESS?
So now it has come out that the co-pilot was the one who crashed the plane on purpose. They "claim" he tore up a medical excuse that he shouldn't have been working. and went up into that plane and crashed it. That company as well as many others are now going to make sure that there is always 2 people in the cock pit! I would have thought that was automatically given! really? So I wish to send out a prayer to all the families who lost someone in that crash. I don't care what country you are from hurt is hurt and everyone needs a prayer. I am so sorry.
I hope with this terrible accident that all and I do mean ALL companies start to look closer at their policies and see what if any thing needs addressing. DO you have it so there are 2 people in the cock pit? if not don't you think its a good idea that 2 are in there at all times? and maybe you need to think about having 3 in there. I know your all trying to save money and what nots but when you come down to it, if you have three in there and it prevents things like this happening then you ARE saving money because you dont have families bringing lawsuits against your company.
What other things on your planes do you need to do to make them safe to fly? Well I'm beginning to think anything over 5 years should be used on short trips only. and anything 10 years and over should be sent off to be tore down and rebuilt.
And its not just the planes that need to be checked. our cars need a taken a closer look at how they can make us safer on the roads now with thousands more drivers every year on the roads. Im not so worried about myself as I am for the future of my grandchildren and their children (when they have them)
I hope with this terrible accident that all and I do mean ALL companies start to look closer at their policies and see what if any thing needs addressing. DO you have it so there are 2 people in the cock pit? if not don't you think its a good idea that 2 are in there at all times? and maybe you need to think about having 3 in there. I know your all trying to save money and what nots but when you come down to it, if you have three in there and it prevents things like this happening then you ARE saving money because you dont have families bringing lawsuits against your company.
What other things on your planes do you need to do to make them safe to fly? Well I'm beginning to think anything over 5 years should be used on short trips only. and anything 10 years and over should be sent off to be tore down and rebuilt.
And its not just the planes that need to be checked. our cars need a taken a closer look at how they can make us safer on the roads now with thousands more drivers every year on the roads. Im not so worried about myself as I am for the future of my grandchildren and their children (when they have them)
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
So what is going on?
There has been another one.
I am beginning to worry just a little bit.
Ever since 9-11 when terrorist attacked the Twin Towers in New York City as well as the other place with the airplanes I have been watching.
and it seems to me we have been having more planes crashes now than ever before. Does anyone else see this? Do anyone else wonder like I do? Is this normal or is it part of the terrorist plan?
Take yesterdays crash for example. It crashed in the mountains. They said this plane had just gone through a check just the day before and they found NOTHING wrong with it. So why did it crash? They are saying something about this ok I don't know what its actually called but its a device on the bottom of the plane what is suppose to notify the pilots of how close they are to things like the mountains. Or this is my understanding. And they said that even though its heated it may have froze. I'm wondering why they dont have a deflector in front of this thingy to help keep it from freezing.
Either way it just seems strange to me that there are a lot of planes crashing these days. and I am wondering why. are we safe?
I am beginning to worry just a little bit.
Ever since 9-11 when terrorist attacked the Twin Towers in New York City as well as the other place with the airplanes I have been watching.
and it seems to me we have been having more planes crashes now than ever before. Does anyone else see this? Do anyone else wonder like I do? Is this normal or is it part of the terrorist plan?
Take yesterdays crash for example. It crashed in the mountains. They said this plane had just gone through a check just the day before and they found NOTHING wrong with it. So why did it crash? They are saying something about this ok I don't know what its actually called but its a device on the bottom of the plane what is suppose to notify the pilots of how close they are to things like the mountains. Or this is my understanding. And they said that even though its heated it may have froze. I'm wondering why they dont have a deflector in front of this thingy to help keep it from freezing.
Either way it just seems strange to me that there are a lot of planes crashing these days. and I am wondering why. are we safe?
Sunday, March 22, 2015
So Much going on
Well it's been awhile again. I'm seeing a new doctor right now. I changed because of some things that my old doctor told me that I didn't agree with. SO I am trying a new doctor. So far she is telling me some shocking stuff that my old doctor did not tell me in fact my old doctor put me on some meds I SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN ON! So yeah I'm kinda glad I've changed doctors. Hubby is so ready to get his right hip done. He is in so much pain. Lord so much pain. When he gets better we are so hoping to go to Florida. I am so ready for that my self. I want to take some stuff to my friend Annette. She is doing some amazing stuff for the rescues. My next thing I hope to do is adopt a dog or puppy when we move to Florida. I miss having a Dog. We are so used to having 2 dogs and 2 cats, so that having 1 cat is strange. Maybe some day I will at least one dog and one cat again.
But for now one day at a time here is what Im doing till surgery. I really hope all goes well and that we have no other surprises.
But for now one day at a time here is what Im doing till surgery. I really hope all goes well and that we have no other surprises.
Saturday, March 14, 2015
Next update
Well again it's been awhile, but there has been so much going on here. Yesterday was our daughter's birthday we took her to breakfast at I-Hop and after we ate they sang "Happy Birthday" to her and boy was her face red! LOL Her brother asked her if she was worried because it was Friday the 13th? and she was like No I'm not superstitious. Later she regretted saying that. She went to see her boyfriend and they were playing catch to get her warmed up for her softball season. Well some how he threw the ball it hit her glove and then her head. Her whole forehead was a Hugh swollen mass. This morning the swelling is down but she now has two black eyes. She looks awful!
Then yesterday little man Logan had a school carnival. Well since mommy already had plans because of her birthday it was up to grandma. Well normally grandma don't mind but she really can't walk much and I've been having trouble with breathing. But we went. I swore we weren't gonna go for more than an hour. Well we ended up staying the whole two hours. By the time we left I couldn't pick up my feet to walk to the car. I got in the car and put on the heat on the seats and then careful drove home. Got home and it took me almost 10 mins to walk from the car to the house. Once in the house after going to the bathroom I crashed in my recliner and that's where I stayed till bedtime. I was a wreck. I heard my self moaning and groaning and I think even crying in my sleep because of the pain. I know my toes and feet were cramping up and hubby said my legs were jumping like a rabbit in the middle of the night. Yeah I shouldn't do that much walking. (And I hadn't really because I walked some then sat .....I brought my walker with a seat). But I guess even sitting and walking for two hours like that was too much for me.
Hubby is scheduled for his right hip surgery April 15th! I am so glad he will finally be all taken care of. That poor man, never having gone to a doctor most of his life and his health has always been almost perfect. He's always been my rock and for him to be in this much pain, well hell I hate it. But at least he is getting the best of care. Our doctor yes our doctor....it's so funny how this happened. Dr. Baker my Rheumatologist recommended Dr. Ghoes for me to have the lump removed from my arm. Well he did my surgery. And then when hubby started having problems with his hip I told him to go see my doctor because I liked him a lot. SO he did. NOW hubby is a guy who doesn't always care for doctors but he really liked Dr. Ghoes. So he has had him doing his shoulder and hip surgeries. Man am I so very thankful to Dr. Baker for recommending him. I'm not sure but so far our talks have been that as soon as he has healed he are finally outta here. and I'm hoping heading to Florida for our final step in our lives.
Then yesterday little man Logan had a school carnival. Well since mommy already had plans because of her birthday it was up to grandma. Well normally grandma don't mind but she really can't walk much and I've been having trouble with breathing. But we went. I swore we weren't gonna go for more than an hour. Well we ended up staying the whole two hours. By the time we left I couldn't pick up my feet to walk to the car. I got in the car and put on the heat on the seats and then careful drove home. Got home and it took me almost 10 mins to walk from the car to the house. Once in the house after going to the bathroom I crashed in my recliner and that's where I stayed till bedtime. I was a wreck. I heard my self moaning and groaning and I think even crying in my sleep because of the pain. I know my toes and feet were cramping up and hubby said my legs were jumping like a rabbit in the middle of the night. Yeah I shouldn't do that much walking. (And I hadn't really because I walked some then sat .....I brought my walker with a seat). But I guess even sitting and walking for two hours like that was too much for me.
Hubby is scheduled for his right hip surgery April 15th! I am so glad he will finally be all taken care of. That poor man, never having gone to a doctor most of his life and his health has always been almost perfect. He's always been my rock and for him to be in this much pain, well hell I hate it. But at least he is getting the best of care. Our doctor yes our doctor....it's so funny how this happened. Dr. Baker my Rheumatologist recommended Dr. Ghoes for me to have the lump removed from my arm. Well he did my surgery. And then when hubby started having problems with his hip I told him to go see my doctor because I liked him a lot. SO he did. NOW hubby is a guy who doesn't always care for doctors but he really liked Dr. Ghoes. So he has had him doing his shoulder and hip surgeries. Man am I so very thankful to Dr. Baker for recommending him. I'm not sure but so far our talks have been that as soon as he has healed he are finally outta here. and I'm hoping heading to Florida for our final step in our lives.
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