Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Another year of prayers and unhappiness

So we have started out this year with my uncle falling and breaking his back and some ribs. Then he had some toes removed. They did not cover them properly so of course they got infected. He ended up in the hospital. Then when he finally got back to a NEW nursing home, they decided he would need either his foot removed or from just below the knee down removed. They ended up doing the knee down. He seems to be doing better, but he also has Sun downer which my dad also had before it progressed to full blown Alzheimer's. The thing that upsets me the most on this is this Uncle is only 10 years older than me.
Now today which is our grandson Jeremy's 13th birthday we learned hubby's brother's wife is in the hospital and may not make it. We aren't even sure what is wrong or what happened. So we are sending out more prayers there.
On top of all this we wanted to be in Florida by now and we will be staying here till at least June, unless we get kicked from our home. Yes we are now not able to make payment once again and are once again in foreclosure. This Christmas will be bleak for sure.
I have medical bills and they are just getting larger.
For the last few weeks when I go to the bathroom I have been bleeding ...........A LOT!
I showed hubby and he agreed yes it was a lot. So I went to the doctors. They ordered both scopes one up the back side and one down the throat. BUT when they called me to talk to me about the appointment they told me I have been blocked because I guess I owe a bill from way back in 2004 when we had no insurance and I had these same test done. (we have cancer running very high in my mom's side of the family) I don't have the money to pay this bill so I can't get these tests done. SO here I sit bleeding almost daily. I'm scared that by the time I do get the tests if ever it will be too late!
So what started out as a good year for me learning to walk has turned into a nightmare for me. PLUS I need surgery on both my shoulders. I just don't know what to do any more. I cry so much. I keep asking why me? and why can't I get help? I've got help from our clinic to pay our medical bills but they don't do past bills! I pray daily for myself as well as everyone else whom is having troubles.
The only good shinning light is our Aaron is back home. It was a bad way he came back. Just before Thanksgiving but Hubby and I are so very very happy he is home!

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